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10 Jan



3 months

8 Jan

Lulu is officially 3 months old.
Sleeps in her crib
Found her hands & sucks on them constantly
Had her first New Years!
Loves her stuffed animal friends GeeGee & Minnie
Loves music
Got her ears pierced
Weighs 14 pounds 14 ounces
Laughed for the first time this past month!


looking back

20 Dec

Yesterday I finally uploaded all of the pictures and videos from my phone to my computer. I may have shed a tear or two as I looked through all the pictures of Miss Lulu from when she was first born. She is growing so quickly, and I cannot believe how big she is after only 2 1/2 months!
Just a few of my favorites from when we were in the hospital…


left: bundle of joy
middle: naptime with daddy
right: my first morning with Lulu

becoming momma

19 Dec

Motherhood is a strange thing…for 9 months I tried to prepare for what I thought motherhood would be like…but words can’t really describe how life has changed or the emotions that have run through me that I never knew existed until becoming a momma.

There have been amazing, beautiful and indescribable moments, and then there have been rough, ugly and messy moments. But somehow God eases us into being a momma with 9 months of sacrificing your body to grow a little baby, and then…after the baby is born, they sleep nearly all the time to help easing into the whole momma gig even more. For me, some of the hard moments came unexpectedly. I was adjusting to taking care of a little human, and I had to work at balancing my new life of being a momma, wife, friend, etc…

I expected not to get a lot of sleep, but I assumed the result of minimal sleep would just make me tired during the day. I figured I’d be tired, so I could just take naps to remedy the sleep I lost at night. But, what caught me off guard was how the lack of sleep took a toll on me emotionally. I felt like I was on an emotional rollercoaster that I couldn’t get off of, I would over-react to things I normally wouldn’t care about. I became weepy, and sort of felt like I was living in a tunnel, a constant circle of feed, sleep, poop, feed, sleep, poop. I love taking care of Lucia, but I felt overwhelmed at night-time, almost dreading it because I knew how little sleep I’d get. Everyone told me that the sleepless nights of waking up every 2-3 hours wouldn’t last for long, but while in the middle of it, it felt like an eternity. Slowly the nights got better, and Lucia started to sleep for longer stretches. Now she wakes up about two times a night, some nights more, some nights less, but overall I feel like we’ve made it through the worst of sleepless nights.

There were two things I researched endlessly before Lucia was born, breastfeeding and sleep schedules. I read books about this stuff, read blogs and talked endlessly with other mommas…I wanted to breastfeed my baby, and I set my goal for 1 year of breastfeeding. Thankfully, nursing has gone really well, and we had very little trouble getting Lucia to latch on, and my milk came in really quickly, and I haven’t had problems with not producing enough milk. I’ve thanked God over and over again for this blessing of being able to nurse Lucia. We haven’t had to use formula at all, she has only ever had momma’s milk, and I’m so grateful that it has worked out for us. I know that every baby is different, and that sometimes breastfeeding just doesn’t work, so I’m that much more thankful that this hasn’t been an issue for us.

The other struggle for me was how I tried to control her sleeping schedule. The first couple weeks Lucia slept almost all the time, then as she started to become awake for longer stretches, then I got ahead of myself and started thinking she was supposed to be on a strict schedule. I started treating her like she was a 4 month old, when in reality she was just a newborn. I expected her to be on a set schedule, all day, every day, and it just wasn’t realistic for her at that time. I overwhelmed myself even more by reading too many blogs and books, and started to feel like we were ‘behind’ in sleep training and that I was doing a crappy job at this whole momma-thing. I began obsessing over it, and it was all I could think about, constantly looking at the clock.  My sister gave me some really good advice…stop reading the blogs and books, and just watch for the signs and cue’s Lucia gives you. I stopped watching the clock, and started watching Lucia…if she showed me she was tired by yawning, having droopy eyes or becoming fussy-I started to soothe her and put her to sleep. If she woke up from a nap and was content, I didn’t feed her right away, but waited until she showed me she was hungry. I stopped feeling guilty for letting her nurse herself to sleep or sleep in bed with us at times. I eased up on myself and started to change the way I thought…I started to think more in generalities than specifics…knowing she usually wouldn’t stay awake for more than an hour or two-I keep an eye on the clock and remembered what time she woke up. It’s been freeing to let go of such a strict mindset. We like to go out on the weekends, which means her naps aren’t the best, but I want her to be able to roll with it and adapt…sometimes after a busy weekend, Mondays are a little hard for her to nap, but by Tuesdays she’s back on track with sleeping.  I know what our long-term goal is for her and her sleep schedule, and I’ve stopped thinking there is one narrow road to get there. I’ve realized that I need to ease up and not put so much pressure on myself, or on her-she’s a baby, and we’ll eventually get to more of a schedule with naps, and we’ll eventually get to her sleeping in her own room in her crib. But for now, we are content with where we are.

It’s all a learning process, and I’m sure-just when I think we’ve got one thing under control, another challenge will arrise…but I’m loving it!


Little Miss

18 Dec

Things are going well with the Little Missy. She’s sleeping well and has mellowed out over the past few weeks. Gone are her nighttime fussies…we are so thankful for such a chill and easygoing baby. Her only demise is her car seat, she hates car-rides and she lets us know of her hatred every time we put her in the car seat.

She blows bubbles constantly, smiles non-stop, and has started following us with her eyes as we walk around the room. She falls asleep fairly well and quick, and wakes up once or twice a night. She takes bottles during the day, and that helps cut down on the blow out diapers. She’s still sleeping in her pack and play in our room, but we have started putting her in her crib every so often for naps. I didn’t think it was possible for my love to grow even stronger for her, but somehow each day it does. At two and a half months, we are even more in love with her than the day she was born.

All this love has us talking about having more kids….


Saint Nicholas

18 Dec

Dan grew up with St. Nick coming to his house every year on the night of December 5th. I however…did not have the excitement of waking up to stuffed stockings and shoes filled with treats.

Dan is all about tradition, so there was no going around St. Nick…and so on the night of December 5th, St. Nick dropped by and filled Lulu’s shoes with clementines and chocolate coins.


life lately

14 Dec

Thanksgiving came and went, and Christmas is just around the corner. We have still yet to get our tree, we are hoping to do that this week, and I’ve yet to purchase any Christmas gifts. But, we have had some pretty big happenings around here as of late. Dan is officially one semester away from having his degree, He’s just finished up this semester with nearly all A’s-I’m so proud!

Lucia had her 2 month doctor appointment last week, ad she is still doing great, in the 90% percentile for height and weight. She is sleeping really well as of late, and we are slowly working towards getting her on a schedule. The other morning we went out to breakfast at one of our old spots and then went to the mall afterwards…and for the first time in a long time it felt like old times…but in a new way. Adjusting to life with a new member in our family has been hard at times, but our breakfast date was so perfect, just what I needed.


4 generations

25 Nov

thanksgiving week

23 Nov

This week has been an adjustment. Monday I went back to work, and the first day was tough. Not tough on me, but hard on Lucia. The adjustment of being with momma all day, every day, to now being with daddy all day has been hard for her. The first day was the toughest, but she’s been slowly getting better day by day. I am trying to focus on not worrying about Lucia, or obsessing over her schedule and whether she’s eating-sleeping-pooping-or-whatever-enough. I have to let go of having complete control over her schedule, and it’s been a process of God teaching me that instead of obsessing and worrying, I need to pray, and give it ALL to God.

God is teaching me to lean on Him, and I’m learning to not be consumed by obsessing over schedules, and to let go of feeling the need to control EVERYTHING. I know this is a life long lesson for me to continue learning, but slowly, day by day, I am trying to grow in this area.  So Monday was hard, but Wednesday was better, and hopefully today is a bit easier.

We had a low-key Thanksgiving this year, Ben came over and I made a feast of food for the three of us. We ate, relaxed, watched football, and even squeezed in a mini-photo-shoot of our family of three. This year I am beyond thankful for our growing family. I am humbled every day just looking at Lucia, and am so grateful for her! Tomorrow we will get together with my side of the family to celebrate Thanksgiving. So tonight I’ll be peeling 10 pounds of potatoes to make mashed potatoes for the feast. Tomorrow will be the first time a lot of the family will see Lucia too. It’s strange, now that we are a family of three I am looking forward to the Holiday’s in a whole new way.

1 month

5 Nov

Today marks one month since Lucia was born.

She is gaining weight like a champ, and has already out grown many of her clothes. She’s fitting into 3 month clothes right now, we’ll see how long that lasts at her rate.

She has been having explosive dirty diapers lately. Last night we were at AJ & Jamie’s and she pooped through 3 outfits. At one point I was across the room feeding her while everyone else was eating, and her toots were so loud everyone across the room could hear her.

She is starting to smile more, is awake a little more, and loves tummy time with her daddy. She hates getting her diaper changed, but sleeps like a rock star during the day and is getting better at sleeping in her bassinet during the night.

We went to Grammy & Grandpa’s house this week and she loves sleeping in Grammy Rosie’s arms!

Her next doctors appointment is on Monday, and I can’t wait to see how much she weighs!

I have a hard time putting her down for naps, not because she doesn’t fall asleep, but because she’ll fall asleep on my chest and I just can’t bear to move her. I know she’ll only be this tiny for such a short time, and I absolutely love soaking in every minute with her. There is no other place I’d rather be than lying on our couch with her sleeping on my chest. I love the way she shifts every so often during her sleep, letting out a grunt, whimper and sometimes even a toot with her cute little bum up in the air.

Last night as we put Lulu to sleep I turned to Dan and told him we make pretty good babies together…and that I can’t wait to have more with him… 🙂