Saint Nicholas

18 Dec

Dan grew up with St. Nick coming to his house every year on the night of December 5th. I however…did not have the excitement of waking up to stuffed stockings and shoes filled with treats.

Dan is all about tradition, so there was no going around St. Nick…and so on the night of December 5th, St. Nick dropped by and filled Lulu’s shoes with clementines and chocolate coins.

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life lately

14 Dec

Thanksgiving came and went, and Christmas is just around the corner. We have still yet to get our tree, we are hoping to do that this week, and I’ve yet to purchase any Christmas gifts. But, we have had some pretty big happenings around here as of late. Dan is officially one semester away from having his degree, He’s just finished up this semester with nearly all A’s-I’m so proud!

Lucia had her 2 month doctor appointment last week, ad she is still doing great, in the 90% percentile for height and weight. She is sleeping really well as of late, and we are slowly working towards getting her on a schedule. The other morning we went out to breakfast at one of our old spots and then went to the mall afterwards…and for the first time in a long time it felt like old times…but in a new way. Adjusting to life with a new member in our family has been hard at times, but our breakfast date was so perfect, just what I needed.

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4 generations

25 Nov

thanksgiving week

23 Nov

This week has been an adjustment. Monday I went back to work, and the first day was tough. Not tough on me, but hard on Lucia. The adjustment of being with momma all day, every day, to now being with daddy all day has been hard for her. The first day was the toughest, but she’s been slowly getting better day by day. I am trying to focus on not worrying about Lucia, or obsessing over her schedule and whether she’s eating-sleeping-pooping-or-whatever-enough. I have to let go of having complete control over her schedule, and it’s been a process of God teaching me that instead of obsessing and worrying, I need to pray, and give it ALL to God.

God is teaching me to lean on Him, and I’m learning to not be consumed by obsessing over schedules, and to let go of feeling the need to control EVERYTHING. I know this is a life long lesson for me to continue learning, but slowly, day by day, I am trying to grow in this area.  So Monday was hard, but Wednesday was better, and hopefully today is a bit easier.

We had a low-key Thanksgiving this year, Ben came over and I made a feast of food for the three of us. We ate, relaxed, watched football, and even squeezed in a mini-photo-shoot of our family of three. This year I am beyond thankful for our growing family. I am humbled every day just looking at Lucia, and am so grateful for her! Tomorrow we will get together with my side of the family to celebrate Thanksgiving. So tonight I’ll be peeling 10 pounds of potatoes to make mashed potatoes for the feast. Tomorrow will be the first time a lot of the family will see Lucia too. It’s strange, now that we are a family of three I am looking forward to the Holiday’s in a whole new way.

1 month

5 Nov

Today marks one month since Lucia was born.

She is gaining weight like a champ, and has already out grown many of her clothes. She’s fitting into 3 month clothes right now, we’ll see how long that lasts at her rate.

She has been having explosive dirty diapers lately. Last night we were at AJ & Jamie’s and she pooped through 3 outfits. At one point I was across the room feeding her while everyone else was eating, and her toots were so loud everyone across the room could hear her.

She is starting to smile more, is awake a little more, and loves tummy time with her daddy. She hates getting her diaper changed, but sleeps like a rock star during the day and is getting better at sleeping in her bassinet during the night.

We went to Grammy & Grandpa’s house this week and she loves sleeping in Grammy Rosie’s arms!

Her next doctors appointment is on Monday, and I can’t wait to see how much she weighs!

I have a hard time putting her down for naps, not because she doesn’t fall asleep, but because she’ll fall asleep on my chest and I just can’t bear to move her. I know she’ll only be this tiny for such a short time, and I absolutely love soaking in every minute with her. There is no other place I’d rather be than lying on our couch with her sleeping on my chest. I love the way she shifts every so often during her sleep, letting out a grunt, whimper and sometimes even a toot with her cute little bum up in the air.

Last night as we put Lulu to sleep I turned to Dan and told him we make pretty good babies together…and that I can’t wait to have more with him… 🙂

up all night

1 Nov

Last night was a bit rough…Little miss Lulu decided to rise and shine from 3am-5am before falling back asleep. As hard as it can be to wake every 2 to 3 to 4 hours depending on the night, I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I cherish those sweet moments I share with her in the late night and early morning  hours. She is a cuddler and doesn’t like to be away from momma for very long at night. And so last night from 3-5am, I quietly listened to her grunts (how can that loud of a grunt come from such a petite little girl?!), coo’s and squeaks as she fed. Those little baby sounds melt me, it never gets old to watch her expressions, nor do I tire of hearing her sweet little whimpers. Having a new baby is hard, and it’s challenging me personally, and challenging my relationship with the Mr., but I wouldn’t trade those sweet moments I have with her in all hours of the morning/night for anything. Love you Lulu!

daddy’s girl

31 Oct

I knew that one of my favorite moments after Lulu was born would be watching Dan hold her for the first time. I carried her for 9 months, so I felt this bond with her, this connection and love for her since I could feel her and she was with me at all times.

And the moment in the hospital when Dan held Lucia in his arms for the first time is beyond describing with words. My heart swelled with love as I watched my husband hold his daughter for the first time, and as he whispered sweet words to her. I could never have imagined how my heart would grow to love Dan even more after having Lucia, but it has. The way he cares for her, sings to her, loves her and talks to her, it causes me to thank God even more for the gift of family that He’s blessed us with. It’s one of my favorite parts of each day, when he comes home and spends time with Lulu.

I can tell that she will be a daddy’s girl, and will have him wrapped around her little fingers. When he’s home he can’t go more than an hour without covering her with kisses. He wrote her a song, and plays it for her on his guitar nearly once a day, and he’s always talking about her future, and how he’s praying for her. Seeing Dan as a father to Lucia literally melts my heart and makes me more excited to grow our family in the future.

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wordless wednesday

25 Oct

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Her Room

18 Oct

Her Story

15 Oct

The day that my daughter was born will forever be one of the happiest days of my life. I keep telling people, why didn’t anyone tell me how incredibly amazing and beautiful it is to have a child…and then I realize, you can’t put it into words that would accurately describe the connection and abounding love we feel for our daughter. She came 9 days earlier than her scheduled due date, and it was God’s absolute perfect timing for her to enter our lives.

It started on Thursday morning, October 4th. I woke up at 2am to go to the bathroom and that’s when it happened. My water broke. I knew it was happening, I tried to fall back asleep and there it came again…I jumped out of bed and Dan instantly woke up thinking I was having a bad dream. I ran over to his side of the bed and told him my water broke. He shot out of bed and asked what we do next…I told him we could wait until morning to call the Doctor. He ever so sweetly went right back to bed and fell asleep within minutes. I on the other hand could do anything but sleep. My mind was racing, it was really happening, 9 days before my due date, all I could think of was everything I needed to do that morning before we got to the Hospital. I naively thought I’d be able to go into work for a couple of hours, run a few last-minute arrends…all very wishful thinking on my part. I lay in bed until about 4am, I couldn’t take it any longer, so I got up, started cleaning, doing dishes and then went to the grocery store to get doughnuts and coffee for us.

After showering, cleaning and eating a doughnut, I called the Doctor at 7am and they told me I needed to go to the hospital right away. I woke Dan up, told him we were having a baby today and he we started to get ready for the day. We made a quick stop to buy a stroller from Craigslist (it HAD to get done…) and we were off to the Hospital. We checked in, went to our room and I changed into the gown. Up until this point I wasn’t having any contractions, so I was in zero pain. It all felt somewhat surreal since I wasn’t feeling any contractions, but I was running on adrenalin and extreme excitement. After a couple of hours they started me on Pitocin to get the labor moving along, and we started taking laps around the hallways. The contractions started coming on more strongly, and after another hour or so, my nurse asked if I was ready for the epidural. I told her I wanted to wait until I was a little further along, I was only 2 cm dilated at this point, and wanted to try to wait until I was around 3 cm dilated so that the epidural wouldn’t slow things down. But, the contractions were getting more intense, and I was trying to breathe through them, but I realized I was fighting my body and tensing up with every contraction. This is when I told my nurse that I was ready for the epidural.

I got the epidural and within minutes I was feeling better, more relaxed and at ease. It was just a matter of a couple short hours before the nurse checked me again and asked if I was ready to push. I was so shocked that I had progressed so quickly, I could barely believe it was happening so fast. The doctors and nurses piled in the room, and before I knew it everyone was counting to 10 and I was pushing. I have never felt that sort of focus, it was like my body had one thing to think about and do when that moment came, and nothing else mattered. Dan was to my right, and helping me count as I pushed. I didn’t feel any pain, but just sheer focus on pushing. After exactly 16 minutes, on my last push I felt her come out, and instantly she started crying. As I looked at my new daughter, I couldn’t help but laugh and cry all at the same time. I think I kept saying “Oh my gosh!” over and over as I laughed and cried. It was all happening so quickly, they put her on my chest and I stared at her in disbelief that she was finally here. After carrying her inside my tummy for 9 months, I had a hard time believing she was finally born. They wiped her off while she was on my stomach, and then shortly after they took her to clean her off.

After we all were cleaned up and back in bed we spent the next few hours staring at our new daughter and soaking in her sounds and how she felt. One of my favorite moments was when Dan held her for the first time. I had carried her for 9 months, constantly feeling her kicks, and now Dan finally was able to hold his daughter and bond with her. We were in Lulu heaven that night, in awe of how blessed we were to finally be holding our healthy baby girl in our arms and for the delivery to go as well as it did. The next morning I brought little Lulu in bed with me while the sun was rising and just stared at her sweet little face. It was so quiet in our room, Dan was still sleeping, and it was just her and I spending our first morning together. I couldn’t believe she was finally here, and that she was our daughter…later that day our family and friends came to meet her, she was a very popular girl as we had visitors from 9am to nearly 9pm, all completely smitten with love for our daughter.

I am surprised at how well the entire labor and delivery process went, and I’m so glad I chose to have an epidural, it helped me relax, focus, be present with Dan in the moment of pure joy as our daughter was born, and I even remember saying afterwards, “That was awesome, I could do that again right now!”. All that to say, my experience being pregnant and in labor makes me want to have more kids…very soon! But for now we are enjoying every minute of our daughter, and each day growing more and more in love with her.